Saturday, March 12, 2011

Abstinence

On Dec 29, 2010, I started abstaining from food. I realized that being nice to myself was not allowing me to "get healthy." So i decided to abstain from flour and sugar for 2 months, or i needed to give Michael $10 for each time i ate something. I did it once. But i thought i could get away with it before i decided to be honest with myself. I lost 12 lbs. Oh, yeah, and i was counting calories and keeping it below 1200 most of the time.

Now, for March, we are on a 21 day detox. No proteins other then detox shake powder for 3 days, then add protein. michael is going to, but i am not yet. I am okay without it. I don't miss it. what i miss is dairy. I like cheese, yogurt, cottage cheese, ice cream, milk.

I am learning that we here in america, can have whatever we want, whenever we want it, for the most part. For some reason, we think that is the answer to happiness, but it has a way of wrecking the soul. We learn richness from abstaining. Backwards thinking. It has been hard at times to not eat junk, but i feel worse eating it learn more about myself from choosing not to. I am also not on FB for Lent. I am realizing that i think about having something to eat or going on FB when i am bored or don't feel like doing what i need to do. It has been freeing to not go on it and relax or waste time. The only thing i can do is look at my to do list and do the next thing.

I have realized that i enjoy time at home. I enjoy cooking for the family healthy foods and helping them. For a while, i was doing so much outside the home, that i let that slide, thinking it wasn't such a big deal. But it is. It creates our family time and help everyone to eat well. Things go smoother when i take care of what needs to be done in the kitchen. And i like to cook new recipes. Today i made pickled carrots, spinach and cauliflower soup and roasted mixed vegetables. Yum. The veges looks so pretty on the plate.