Leadership

Well, you know I am President of our Toastmasters group. It has some new feelings attached. One being, one i rec'd just now. I asked a guy to make a flyer for our group, stating times, etc for a conference insert. Now, a few times, he asks me permission to delay the proof sending to me. He is still working on it. It feels strange for someone to ask me "Is it okay if i do such and such?" Not bad, but new. I guess because i have been such a follower in my life, i rarely get the incidence where others are looking to me for direction and deadlines. Also, with this role, i have people let me make the final decision, the buck stops with me. They give me ideas and then let me choose. I guess i have had this experience in my family some what, but not with other adults. Do others really look to me for direction and actually trust my decision, outside my home? I guess people do look to me but i don't feel like "the" leader, but one of them. But being President, people put you on the pedestal. Now i understand, that in Toastmasters, others desire for me to learn leadership in this role, so they purposely give me the last say. But i have others calling me for all things, when they could call the appropriate person that handles that other stuff. So, i empower them to call the right person, so i don't do someone else's role and it gives them something to learn as well. Having others respect me for what i do and for who i am, is an interesting feeling. At Toastmasters, I have "business" people respecting me and treating me as a leader. I guess that officially makes me feel like a leader, when people follow you. Now i just need to tell my mind that i can be a good one and i am one now.